The Good, The Bad, and The Positive

I was inspired to start this blog because of all the wonderful compliments I get thanking me for my positive attitude and uplifting spirit. I was not always this way. I am greatful to God for the strength and thankful spirit he has blessed me with.
To sum it up, I am a wife, mother, and fighter! I am a suicide survivor. By this I mean that I have broken what some have referred to as a "generational curse". My maternal grandmother and mother both committed suicide. At the age of 13, I found my mother with 3 self-inflicted gun shots wounds to her heart and stomach on my way to school. This day changed my life.
The Lord has always been there for me. He has carried me through many dark days. I once thought that my destiny, my fate, was to die this way. I was scared and I prayed. In the last 12 years I have graduated college, earned my Master's Degree in Social Work, married my high school sweetheart, and given birth to two beautiful children. I am blessed beyond words. I have been married 11 years to my best friend. We fall more and more in love with each other everyday! My children are remarkable. They bless me daily.
I don't look at life through rose-colored glasses. I do see it for what it is. However, because of Jesus' love for me and my journey into knowing Him more and more, I see the beauty through the pain. I have a passion for life. I see the positive in the negative. I live for today. I enjoy each and every moment. I believe that positive thinking will bring more positive people into my life and rid me of the negative chatter that lived inside me for many years. God has given every single one of us a purpose. This is mine.